I Cracked......

So it finally got to me. I had my first nursing school breakdown, tears and all. So this has been brewing for some days now. The school was closed on Wednesday meaning I could not take the exam. I hardly got any sleep the evening prior to the now canceled exam.

I never sleep very well on test nights and the impending snow storm made it worse.
Well, that evening basically last night I received an email from my clinical instructor telling me that I had 6 hours of online orientation to complete prior to attending clinicals on Friday.

Well, this was Wednesday evening and I was required to attend the hospital lab the following morning and work the following evening. I was kinda devastated. At first I was shocked she would ask me to find an extra 6 hours on such short notice.

Then I dissolved into a self-pity mess. It did not help that I am sleep-deprived and barely finding time to eat. Even when I do have time to eat I usually don't have food cause I don't have time to buy it. Its kinda horrible.

So after whining and crying for several hours while attempting to study I decided I need to call curl up with a cup of hot cocoa and watch the latest Teen Mom 2.

I had an OK day today learning how to insert a Foley catheter and a NG tube. I also got to change a wound dressing. All on Sim men of course.

And lastly a co-worker whom I now love let me finish up the modules tonight at work while he manned the check in desk.

I love my job and my co-workers. I am feeling a lot better. I am gonna kick nursing schools ass in the end even if it briefly takes me out every once in awhile.